It has been said countless times but I feel the need to reiterate: social media is the highlight reel of most of our lives. Everyone puts their “best life” on display which results in everyone else working harder to make sure their facades are as glamorous as their competition’s.

The last fews months have been pretty hard, dare I say, the hardest months of my life. I won’t go into much depth but it felt like every area of my life was tested. It came to a point where I felt like quitting everything, signing up for witness protection and just moving on. (Apparently I’m not eligible for the program so that plan failed.) 🙄

It didn’t help that my job virtually requires me to be plugged into the social world as much as possible. I logged out of my personal accounts and unapologetically disconnected from the world. I’d go to work, return home, sleep and repeat 5-7 times a week. It was Celtics playoff season so it helped to have an excuse to not have a social life, whether online or in person. The only signs of “human life” were on my twitter account. I’d tweet about basketball as much as possible to make sure I was keeping up with appearances.

These last few months have taught me so much about trusting in God. I’ve had A LOT of alone time (maybe too much to be honest). Being in isolation is a frustrating experience but I understand now God used this time to show me how to have faith. When you ask God for faith, you don’t receive a package of faith in your mailbox but rather a situation that’s far beyond your control. When you realize only God can fix it you have no choice but to stay calm and let him work.

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I’ve lived at my current location for about two years and was honestly comfortable.  There’s nothing necessarily wrong with contentment until that  complacency gets in the way of a blessing that’s in store for you.

A situation…alright, I’m lying… A FEW situations presented themselves and made me realize my time at that place had expired. I won’t lie, there were moments where I said maybe I should just suck it up and stay another year. I mean the rent is affordable it can’t be THAT bad.  But God had something else in mind…

LONG story short, I found a new place to live but that’s not even the point of the message. (I’ll save that story for another time)

What God has in store for me no one has the power to take away. My time away from the Instagram stories and Facebook updates helped me realize the good in a flawed system. Social media should be a place to uplift, celebrate and even inspire but it has turned into the dog and pony show which results in everyone being more unsatisfied. Rather than be happy for those around me, I found myself sinking into a pit of envy and depression because I’m not where THEY are (or at least where they claimed to be) when I should have been happy and excited for the people I called my friends. 🤦🏾‍♀️

I’m learning to be content in the timing God has for me. I mean think about it; if we all had the same story/blessings/struggles life would be pretty wack. When things seem to fall apart all around it may just be preparation for better things to come. You can’t be blessed with a new apartment, car, income, boy/girlfriend, etc. if the old one is in the way… 🤷🏾‍♀️

I’m still working on different areas of my life but I’m also back on those IG stories (@KWANIALUNIS) 🤳🏾 and learning how to be supportive of those around me. (whether they’re stuntin’ or not). Life is far from easy but if faith in God is all I need to make it through then who cares if everyone is taking selfies in bikinis while riding giraffes up Mount Everest.

 

Stay inspired. Stay blessed. Trust in God.

 

Sincerely Yours,

A Work in Progress 🚧💜🚧