20 years have gone by and as I prepare to enter a new year I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and I’ve come to the conclusion that all the things that have been weighing my mind down are not even worth it. Simply put, I’m over it. I’m done worrying about what people think about, what I’m gonna be when “I grow up”, whether or not I’ll find someone that learns to truly love me, and on and on and on. 2014 is a selfish year. Not selfish like “all about me, who cares about you”, selfish in I learn to love myself without expecting anyone else to. Alexander Pope said it best:
Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.
I’ve spent all my life expecting people to give me as much as I give them, but Jesus called us to love unconditionally so if I get nothing in return it was still worth it because I may be the only “Jesus” they see. As I obey Christ and try to live as he did, I know he’ll take care of me. It’s almost 2014, time to start fresh, time to leave it all behind.