It has been said countless times but I feel the need to reiterate: social media is the highlight reel of most of our lives. Everyone puts their “best life” on display which results in everyone else working harder to make sure their facades are as glamorous as their competition’s.
The last fews months have been pretty hard, dare I say, the hardest months of my life. I won’t go into much depth but it felt like every area of my life was tested. It came to a point where I felt like quitting everything, signing up for witness protection and just moving on. (Apparently I’m not eligible for the program so that plan failed.) 🙄
It didn’t help that my job virtually requires me to be plugged into the social world as much as possible. I logged out of my personal accounts and unapologetically disconnected from the world. I’d go to work, return home, sleep and repeat 5-7 times a week. It was Celtics playoff season so it helped to have an excuse to not have a social life, whether online or in person. The only signs of “human life” were on my twitter account. I’d tweet about basketball as much as possible to make sure I was keeping up with appearances.
These last few months have taught me so much about trusting in God. I’ve had A LOT of alone time (maybe too much to be honest). Being in isolation is a frustrating experience but I understand now God used this time to show me how to have faith. When you ask God for faith, you don’t receive a package of faith in your mailbox but rather a situation that’s far beyond your control. When you realize only God can fix it you have no choice but to stay calm and let him work.
I’ve lived at my current location for about two years and was honestly comfortable. There’s nothing necessarily wrong with contentment until that complacency gets in the way of a blessing that’s in store for you.
A situation…alright, I’m lying… A FEW situations presented themselves and made me realize my time at that place had expired. I won’t lie, there were moments where I said maybe I should just suck it up and stay another year. I mean the rent is affordable it can’t be THAT bad. But God had something else in mind…
LONG story short, I found a new place to live but that’s not even the point of the message. (I’ll save that story for another time)
What God has in store for me no one has the power to take away. My time away from the Instagram stories and Facebook updates helped me realize the good in a flawed system. Social media should be a place to uplift, celebrate and even inspire but it has turned into the dog and pony show which results in everyone being more unsatisfied. Rather than be happy for those around me, I found myself sinking into a pit of envy and depression because I’m not where THEY are (or at least where they claimed to be) when I should have been happy and excited for the people I called my friends. 🤦🏾♀️
I’m learning to be content in the timing God has for me. I mean think about it; if we all had the same story/blessings/struggles life would be pretty wack. When things seem to fall apart all around it may just be preparation for better things to come. You can’t be blessed with a new apartment, car, income, boy/girlfriend, etc. if the old one is in the way… 🤷🏾♀️
I’m still working on different areas of my life but I’m also back on those IG stories (@KWANIALUNIS) 🤳🏾 and learning how to be supportive of those around me. (whether they’re stuntin’ or not). Life is far from easy but if faith in God is all I need to make it through then who cares if everyone is taking selfies in bikinis while riding giraffes up Mount Everest.
Stay inspired. Stay blessed. Trust in God.
A Work in Progress 🚧💜🚧
My group presentation for the NBC Sports Idea lab 2017: Our presentation begins around the 25:23 mark
Once again, “guns” and “human lives” are being bartered, but the exchange has left more debt than profit.
Yesterday I tried to change my skin. I closed my eyes, squeezing out every ounce of light from my corneas, wishing I could peel off this brown bodysuit called melanin.
Maybe if we were all the same color we’d have no reason to hate. Right?
At 6 am I scroll through my Twitter timeline, as I usually do, when I fall upon a hashtag; #AltonSterling
I’ve seen a number of these viral videos in recent years:
I watched as Eric Garner cried “I can’t breathe” while NYPD officers held him in an illegal choke-hold.
I watched in North Charleston, South Carolina when an officer gunned down 50- year old Walter Scott was running for his life.
I watched an underage girl was dragged in her bathing suit in McKinney, Texas.
Oh yeah, and there was the other young girl, in Spring Valley, SC, viciously dragged out of her school desk for acting out in class.
…but this one was different. Like a dam with nothing left to give, I broke.
I don’t like tears.
Mascara smudges, eyeliner fades away and before I know it I look like one of Bozo’s long lost cousins.
I think about the many lives that were lost to gun violence this year and then, just as quickly, I forget.
At midnight I prepare to end my day, the same way I had began it. I scroll through my Twitter once more and there it was. Another hashtag.
Twice in less than 24 hours I was reminded of a pain I had tried to forget. Between gun violence and law enforcement egoism, my thoughts are scrambled. My heart races at 90 beats per minute as I try to put into words how I feel, and all I can say is this:
I don’t want to close my eyes tonight. Maybe if I keep them open long enough, another life won’t be lost as I blink.
I can’t say with certainty why these men were murdered in cold blood. I can’t say that their encounters with those cops were without cause, but when will the senseless deaths come to an end?
When there is nothing but a pattern of black men and women being slaughtered, what else is one left to think? What if you woke up in fear that the next victim was the person you loved most?
They tell me this is a post-racial society. They say, “I don’t see color.” Hmmm. Is that to say that you’d rather not address the “brown” elephant in the room? Let’s just cut out the chapter about the taboo history of this land, a history that that expects us to instinctual hate our fellow man.
I have experienced firsthand what that hatred can do to one’s heart, and roots that deep take centuries to uproot.
I want no part of it.
Racism is very much alive, but we can all do our part to obliterate its remains for good. If you see this statement as false, then you are also a part of the problem.
“Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it is the wellspring of life” Proverbs 4:23
Why don’t we just stop killing each other? Who are we to decide another’s length of time on this earth?
Have you ever stood in the shower for hours, hoping the scorching water would wash away the melanin?
Then I remembered that my “black is beautiful”and I will live fearlessly in the skin I’m in.
On the Margins of Title Nine– Women’s professional hockey in a way you’ve never seen it.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”(Proverbs 3:5-6)
In one of my MANY encounters with financial aid I was told “if you can’t afford to be here, then maybe you and your family should look into alternative options”
Although those words discouraged me at the time, I am glad I didn’t give up. By the books it may seem impossible that I went to a school like Boston College, but with God there’s always a way. Yesterday I received a Bachelor’s degree in Communications and on June 1st will be starting my first job at WBZ TV- CBS Boston.
So yeah, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and he will see you through — and NEVER give up on your dreams!
No matter what your aspirations may be, there are many roads to success. Mentors are fine, and advice is even better, but at the end of the day we all have an individual journey to success.
The following is what I posted on Facebook earlier today after a disheartening experience at a local restaurant near my university. I am not one to call a person a racist, sexist, or label someone in any way; but I can say that I was treated without respect last night and no one should ever feel the way I did as I walked out of that building.Without regard to race, gender, religion, et cetera. Everyone has the right to respect and that is not my friends and I were given
To all my AHANA students at Boston College please do not give your business to CitySide restaurant in Cleveland Circle. I have never been one to “play the race card” but me and three of my friends walked into the restaurant, sat at the empty bar, were refused service. We were told that the building was full to capacity (despite the empty tables) though we walked in with four other white people who were not kicked out. As he kicked us out, while threatening to call the police, he gave us a devilish smirk, spelled out his name [Anthony] and allowed 6 other white women to enter his establishment. I understand that discrimination cases are hard to prove, but I have never been treated as inhumanely as I was tonight. The saddest part of all was knowing that there was no “authority” I could call that would hear my case and defend me. This is the America I live in.
One person commented on this status saying that “…it is not a good look to cry wolf” to which I responded; “…Maybe I’m the crying wolf but hopefully this time someone hears it because in this country our cries have gone unheard for too long.”
Please join in the discussion. You can read the status and comments here.
“…One Nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.”In my elementary school days, I would recite every word of this country’s mantra, proud to be a citizen of this great nation. Or so I thought. In recent days, that hand has become too heavy to hold up and my voice has grown weak. I have never been the protesting type. In my mind, this country has never done me wrong, at least not directly, so I felt no reason to speak out. Of course I learned about Sojourner Truth, Harriet Tubman, Frederick Douglass, Angela Davis, Mary McLeod Bethune, Ruby Bridges, Maya Angelou, Malcolm X, Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King, and all of the others, but yet it seems as though their labor were almost in vain. The list of black men and women killed at the hands of white supremacy should cause this country to look in the mirror in shame. Do not get me wrong, there has been progress since that first slave ship landed on this land 395 years ago. Michael Brown, Eric Garner, Oscar Grant, Ezell Ford, Rodney King, John Crawford, Aiyana Stanley, Sean Bell, Patrick Dorismond, Amadou Diallo, Corey M. Brown, DeAunta Terrel Farrow, Derrick Jones, Emmett Till, Guy Jarreau Jr., Jimmell Cannon, Kenneth Harding, Kiwane Carrington, Orlando Barlow, Ousmane Zongo, Ramarley Graham, Reginald Doucet, Rekia Boyd, Ronald Madison, Steven Eugene Washington, Tarika Wilson, Travares McGill, Victor Steen, Wendell Allen, Trayvon Martin, and that list goes on as well. I have never been the protesting type, however I have always been an American. I was born and raised in this country, and it’s my constitution that ensure Liberty and Justice for ALL of its citizens. The blood, sweat, and tears of black men and women helped build this country into what it is today. I’m not asking for much. I don’t want 40 acres and a mule, because it’s a little late for that; I just want liberty and justice for those who share my complexion. And you know what hurts the most? The fact that I currently attend a liberal arts institution and am more vulnerable to this harassment than ever before. We call ourselves educated and yet we still have “colleagues” calling us thugs, gorillas and of course, good old-fashioned N——s. I was not ever raised to be a victim, and I will not be one now, but something must be done. I am hurt by institutional racism. I am repulsed by black on black crime, but livid due to white on black violence as well. Most of all I am disappointed with the African-Americans of these “United” States. We have become so comfortable in this country that we forgot that respect is not given, but earned. There are so many factors to this argument, so many levels and complexities that I myself cannot wrap my head around it, but in the end we are all at fault for where this country is now.
“Those who fail to learn from history are doomed to repeat it”Churchill was right, because history has taken a complete 360, and something must be done to break the cycle. I do not have answers, but the first step to change is unity on both sides. We must all realize where we have gone wrong and be willing to change. Nowadays, I rarely hear the Pledge of Allegiance, but at sporting events (I watch a lot of those), I hear the national anthem:
“…O say does that star-spangled banner yet waveNo it does not. But until it does my arms will lay at my sides, unable to hold the heart which once beat with pride for this country. Share thoughts below.
o’er the land of the free
and the home of the brave?”
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